I can't explain this "incredible hulk"-like transformation. It's shocking. Especially when I feel so hot and confident as I brush my teeth at night. Then wake up and see my DAD in the mirror.
It's also disconcerting. Because my wife and I have most of our sex in the morning. So I guess she wants to pork my dad
It might be the caffeine. It's like a youth serum. Unfortunately it gives me terrible gas. Hot and smelly or look like my dad...
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
And i can't believe how nice everyone was to me. Kaiser people were super cool. Blew my impression of them.
None of them could believe I did this before without any meds. They promised I'd get some. And I did
Fentanyl and versed. Yummy!
Now I'm groggy and apathetic. But in a real content pleasant way.
Maybe an opiate addiction would be fun!
Anyway, I'm relieved and grateful for my health. It's hard to go into a big city hospital building for care. It feels impersonal and makes me feel like I'm sick. But they helped me feel cared for. And I made it
only 45 more minutes. yay. can't wait... to eat!
actually i've done this before. when i was a resident i had this procedure done. but i was working that day, so they couldn't give me anesthesia. they just asked "does anyone want to do one?" i said "sure!".
without any meds, they put a tube about the size of your thumb into my duodenum. i was writhing. it was by far the most uncomfortable feeling of my life. i can still feel that cold, firm plastic in my throat. poking inside my stomach. strange. bad.
i hope today is better. i hope they give me fentanyl!